It is then the end of November and it sure sucks to be sick... been so long since i felt so weak and sick =p but no worries for i'll be fine soon.. i hope =p hehehe.. will be away in Malaysia for the next 8 days and so gonna miss everyone!!! woohoo.. It sure has been an interesting month and it sure feels great to be loved and to love!! wootss.. shall not blog so much.. hehe.. byee people........
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Yesterday was the day i arrived back in Singapore after spending 3 memorable days with the children from Bethesda orphanage in Batam. We arrived in Batam on Sat morning and i wasn't expecting much from the trip but to visit the country i originated from and eat their food again!! It seems more of a 'holiday' and time off from the busy life here. We took a ferry over and it sure was a warm trip. We were then awaited by our tour guide, Octa. Our passports were then kept and we were soon in the minibus which would take us to Golden View Hotel. Our driver, Pak Pri was a nice man. Since the rooms weren't ready in the hotel, we had to place our belongings in a room provided by the hotel before going off for our 'shopping' for hardwares and tools.. Our meals that day was an ordinary one with nothing really special. After lunch, we proceeded on to Bethesda orphanage to get to know the children and see what we can do for them. i got to know a boy called Marlius who then taught me to play some hand game. it sure was fun. For the next few days. i had some problems trying to remember the names of the children there. After the visit, we went back to the hotel for our planning and rest!!
On the 2nd day, we started work at the orphanage but there were difficulties which surfaced such as the attempt in assembling a cupboard which has no instruction manual. Next thing we know, the screwdriver was a lousy one and can hardly screw the screws in. Well, rather than just let it be, i thought might as well ask the 'kakak' if there is any hardware shop around so that we can buy new screwdrivers. She then asked Johan to bring me to the hardware shop nearby. Wow.. i miss walking barefooted. that walk to the hardware shop made me realize that. Was not really used to the hot and rough road but it sure was fun. While walking, i had a conversation with him and found out that they only eat fish and vegetables usually and only have meat such as chicken, etc only for special occasions such as birthdays. This is such a simple fare and yet they are surviving on them and yet here i am in a nice country, pampered with good food and sometimes putting them to waste. It sure felt bad. We then continued in assembling the cupboards while some of us worked on in the kitchen, cleaning it before painting the walls. We also shared our lunch with the childrens. After that, we there was supposed to be english lesson but the children didn't want to have lessons since it was a Sunday. So we then had a game of soccer at the field which was practically foot reflexology! Sure was impressive to see the children running barefooted and chasing after the ball when the ground were filled with rocks. Tim sure did something real nice in buying ice-cream for everyone. it was 100, 000 Rupiah worth of ice-cream which costs 2000 Rupiah each. We then went back and on the way back, our bus broke down!! ouch... We then had to 'tompang' the bus of another class to the shopping centre to do some shopping. Me and Nigel sure bought alot of groceries!! hehe..
On the third day, we aimed to finish up we have come to do. However, we didn't manage to do so. It sure was disappointing. I would have loved to stay on and do more for them or at least complete what we had gone to do but time were not on our side and there were other factors. However, the third day was still cool and memorable. I totally can't get angry easily and no way can i get angry when a person asks me to. It is just not who i am i suppose. Painting the wall wasn't as easy though i've done such work before. Unfortunately, the long pole i was using actually broke and it had lovely panda pictures on them somemore.. ughhh.. hahaha.. We mounted shelves for the children as well as some fans as their fans were not in a very good condition. This time round, Andrew bought them ice-creams.. good business for the ice-cream man ba. At the sametime, T21 arrived at the orphanage. Saw Ty and he was telling me about what happened in Sg? more or less? yeah.. was like wow?? okayyy... it has only been a few days and so much has happened? wow.. Soon, it was time to say bye to the children we have made friends with in the short period. I sure felt like just staying there with them and nor boarding the bus. Ms Yao then told us to refflect on our immediate feelings in the bus. I was filled with so much emotions that i would rather look out of the window of the bus to reflect instead of writing. It was a great feeling to have known that we have done something nice for them and yet it is also very sad to know that our efforts only bring them temporary benefits. Would they ever become our domestic worker one day? possible. it is just sad to know how we live in a deluded world at times. The most shocking event that happened was about Kevin!!! that was... errrr... wow??
Last day was then shopping day!!! It was cool!! but yet sad... what am i doing shopping? i would have gladly followed T21 back to the orphanage... ughhhh...
Back in Singapore, i caught up with what has happened the past few days and hmm.. why are we living in so much problems and unhappiness when there are people out there who live simply and yet live life to the fullest and happily? Are we just too pampered and wish to pursue what we see as 'true' happiness? I'm guilty of that and how simple things can make me unhappy. Everything is about me but what about others? How do they feel? Are there others worst off? So what if we know so much and are sociable? So what if we are attached or like someone? We are still living in a very pampered condition. proper clothes, branded ones at that. Here we are worrying about what clothes to wear from our already huge wardrobe, about which games we should buy, about blogging away about our lives, about spending time with people we are close to and many more when there are many others out there who have no such worries but rather of how are they going to survive and all.. Sometimes i wonder..... is happiness gained through simplicity? Is generosity gained through hardships? and well, there are just many things...
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Well, another week has passed.. as of now, just excited about the Batam OCIP trip.. though will miss the friends here, but they are classmates there too. heh. well, it sure was an enjoyable week and sorta went out quite abit for ocip stuff.. totally interesting.. well, today is an interesting day too and it sure was surprising, a pleasant one.. never thought i would get that this fast but it's real sweet.. hehe.. thanks to you.. sure was a way to send off someone.. can't really think properly now.. not sure what to write and all..
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Love is sweet and soothing, but at the same time, it is bitter and hurtful. We then see how an idea can have 2 sides to be viewed from. It is then back to the point of our freedom of choice. Tendency to look from one point of view is highly possible depending on the happening that has been happening around.. Though one may be happy, but it is sad to know that when one's happy there are those close who aren't happy.. What can be done? sometimes, advices and pointers just fall on deaf ears as one may be adamant in doing what one believes.. that sure is a challenging phase which one may encounter in life.. how do one oversome such phases? the answer is not applicable as different people = different way of approaching things = different answers. is it easier to be irational in times of sadness? maybe??
Generally, things has been going on and on and on.. time passes on and little has been done.. OCIP is approaching and it will sure be a time of missing of those close around.. praying that everyone'll alright and well especially those who aren't at the moment.. today was cool.. went online and did abit of work in the morning before going out.. It was an experience.. It was an instant where one do not feel so helpless anymore and at the same time, it was unexpected that things happen but overall, i'm happy with what is happening.. courage comes from many sources and sometimes, you'll be surprised at how much courage and motivation you can give as an individual to another person.
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Well, went out today and it was an interesting time and all.... but think i didn't handle it as well as i should have....
But basically it was a great day and Celiniaaaaaa totally is super duper cute and sweeeeet.... Never have i gotten such a great thing ever... thank you!!!! me shall do something... asap!!!!! cheerios yea
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OP is finally OVER!!! it feels so great that hols can officially start but at the same time, it would mean the start of revision or more like catching up with the times i ahve lost this year alone. In a way it is something that is feasible but if only i have the one important thing which is discipline since i have already sorta in a way got motivated to study with the promotion resuls that would be coming out this Friday. things been going quite alright i guess and this Fri is gonna be so full of surprises!!!! behold people... weirdsssssssssssss.....
Sorta miss the people who hang out in church.... oh wells.. soon enough maybe.. alright some of the peolpe includes Lowell, TY, JusEva, Sam, Brendan, Celinia, Andrea and ughhh many more la.. lazy to name?? well, guess it does include Rach too?? hahaha.. weirdsssss...
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There comes a time when everything seems great and things are going toward a better path but at the same time, unforeseen events makes one sad... there are many issues and things that one may know but at the same time this is not known by the parent who then assumes that their child is fooling around and wasting time or even go "galavanting"... just as how the parent do not know what the child has done, the child also do not know what the parent has done and things are seen to be more comfortable left as how it is.. Upon realization, nothing actually gets better and instead, the situation may turn out to be worst than ever.. what should be done next? wishing isn't an option as it is not going to help if no action is taken.. trying seems to be such a hard thing to do after all the wisdom and love that has been passed down.. at times, it feels so much better to just stone right there and then and just gives them the answer that is expected just like in an examination. the usual way of answering.. but it will just result in a vicious cycle.. where to go? try or give up? share or bottle up? one-way or two-way? at times just wished tt parents are best friends who will just listen to all your problems anytime u need them and give word of encouragement instead of going straight to the scolding section but though attempts may have been made, sometimes, damages tt has been done to one's mindset takes a much longer time and effort to be repaired..
just unsure of how to go about doing things..... no one to blame as one is a master of their own lives and chooses the way of life that would be led in the future.... should i have been stubborn and followed what i had actually wanted than to try something that is uncertain? maybe.. but too late for any regrets so forward is the only way out..
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Sometimes things happens the way you want them to be and sometimes they don't.. God really provides one with what one needs and not what one wants or yearns for.. Promotion seems so bleak at one point and the next thing i know i meet the promotion criteria. It was a pleasant surprise as i myself know that i have been most guilty of procrastination and fooling around more than i once did for O's. Well, it is time to work like even though exams sorta just ended and holidays are just starting.. Things around are also getting better in every way. Though there may still be some issues that are yet to be settled but i guess things are much more stable as compared to it was.. or i hope it is..... at times dilemmas are such an irritant.. what would one do? it will so affect the results and at the same time, trying to cover up for something is not a good option. guess the best is just to be who you really am and let others appreciate you for who you really am and not for who you portray yourself to be or wants them to know you as.. but of course different people has got different opinions on just this trivial matter which makes it into such an untrivial matter..
At the same time. it is such a sad thing to know so much and yet there is little that can be done as there are promises made.. the best that can be done is to give advice and hints but whether it will be taken up is totally another issue as sometimes people just say yes to something for the short term and only realizes their mistake in the long term. ugh... just dun feel like writing much anymore.. somethings are just meant to be kept in the head.. cheers.............
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