e diel, 23 mars 2008 @4:10 p.d.
Well, i'm back once again.. I do not know what to say but have found a terrible discovery..after finding out a similar situation i had been in before i wonder what is the purpose of the actions i did.. why didn't i think it over? currently emoing away with much thoughts which damages my thinking process.. i lie to myself.. is it of any good other than giving myself more hurt than ever? is it fake? is it real? i know the answer but i just refuse to acknowledge it.. what is it that makes 1 feel the way i am feeling now? have i poisoned the well? or have i made a hasty generalization? what is it? i would love to find out.. this is a story.. n woohoo i sound so emo.. as said, all stories are true but not all actually happen.. life is full of pessimism when you are tired.. maybe not but it sure is an easier way out.. giving up.. letting go of what we believed ans had once enjoyed doing.. n pronto.. a changed person emerge.. no matter how you may deny it, but u've changed.. i'm a water.. do i need to be a fire and earth and air? n balance out everything.. new belongings such as psp, desktop and handphone are but materialistic.. it sure is enjoyable at first.. but i sure miss the toys i once had.. the attachment to things like a bolster sure is a hard thing to give up as it has been there, growing up with me.. things these days also doesn't seem to last as long as it does in the past.. why is it like tt? where is the quality that is once present in products? i wish i still could taste that delicious chilled green bean sold by the roadside n have my bike to do dangerous stunts on the road, skids, sudden breaks, wheelies and many more esp speeding.. the time to detach from everything.. would i ever grow tired? of coz i won't as i love doing those things.. they are what i am now.. they are many other new interests that comes into life such as watching shows on computer such as claymore,computer gaming, facebook and many more but does it give as much satisfaction as the initial activities i love?hmmm...not as much... the old traditional, dangerous, tricky, challenging and beloved activity is still the best.. all i need it time to set aside for it to be done..do i have the time? if i don't procastinate.. of coz.. why are water hesitant in such things and yet are more than willing to provide help whenever it is possible.. water are loyal, considerate, supportive, hesitant, patient, caring, willing to share, willing to journey, willing to agree and are full of feelings.. aiyo.. what a water!! and it's time to sleep for easter bazaar.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.................
♥ you and i both loved
