e enjte, 26 qershor 2008 @11:24 p.d.
Thus was the end exams.. raped by maths but oh well only have myself to blame for not putting in the necessary effort.. praying that will pass the other subjects.. June will soon be over and soon it's July.. a special time.. sometimes there are many things in life that will distract us.. that may lead us astray.. however, we have the choice to choose what we want.. to delude or to live up to reality.. of course delusions are easier options as it is much more pleasant than the harsh reality of life.. at times we try our best in things but still it isn't enough and may end up only hurting us even more but why not just do what you can and see what happens instead of trying and trying and trying? we are an extent hypocrites ourselves and may find ourselves guilty of hypocrisy.. consider the many times we tell others not to do something which we ourselves consciously or unconsciously do.. it is not our fault either as we are still humans.. letting go of something that we like sure is hard but we will never move on if we don't let go.. imagine how life would be without that negative aspect of life which only brings more harm than good? sometimes we will have a hard time too making a difference between appearance and reality.. who actually is that person whom you call a friend, a teacher, a parent or even a lover.. how many actually accept you for who you are no matter how you may never change your behaviours.. well, if you find one then possibly it might be someone whom you'll spend your life with.. haha.. how about also not expecting too much and know why another person isn't too happy with you and address the situation through talking and all instead of just resorting to anger? there is a reason to everything one would do.. though it may be a challenge for some but we sure have to be who we are and not put on any mask.. so what if others see you happy but deep inside you aren't? you are lying to them and worst you are lying to yourself.. we want many things in life.. many many.. attention, love, concern, material things, character and many more but what use is there to want if there is nothing done or worst that you are just drowned in your own negativity that totally pulls you away from your fulfilling of your wants.. instead of looking at things from a pessimistic point of view, why not look from the optimistic view and challenge yourself.. it is always easy to break something and get a new one but why not challenge yourself to try and maintain that thing you have? no matter how challenging it may be.. you can't just give up when things are hard for you.. when things are too hurtful but why the hurt? because there is a special connection between you and that thing or may even be person.. so don't you dare in your moment of anger say you do not care about that thing or person.. it may just bring more hurt and it will accumulate.. one may say why not just let go but what is the point of letting go and not caring? won't the same thing happen again in future? how many times would you want it to happen before you see how serious the matter is? what if that person just dies the next moment? you'll live life with full of regrets.. love is a very strong word that is shared amongst everyone.. so use it wisely and not for the sake of saying or for the sake of proving that you are with someone.. sometimes love is a silent word that is meant to be felt and not said.. hmmm.. that was quite some blabbering.. no idea what was that about..haha.. well, with the completion of mid yrs, here comes the next surprise.. promos.. oh man.. shall enjoy 1st though supposed to suffer 1st then enjoy.. tmr is the day... should i stay? or not.. the days are over but what can be done is just support.. i yearn for it but yet i daren't make any moves.. it is similar to a lost connection.. can i reboot and get back the connection? that is obviously a yes but as it takes two hands to clap, this feeling must not only be mine.. and now to slack time again.. cycling is tempting but it is super hot... no way will i cycle in this weather unless there is a very important reason to do so or at least something that is important in my belief...
♥ you and i both loved
